Feels again.

I was blank I layed again found myself disolving into the walls of my room. I was quiet. I thought I am depressed due to some hormonal changes in my body though they were all excuses. I had tried pretty hard to get over you you are gone you don't exist anymore. Things have changed you have to come back probably because I had hopes and I won't let them die, U reside inside me. No matter how hard I try I may start thinking about someone else but your thoughts why the hell dont they just leave me? Can you please go out and just let me live! No you won't you simply won't. I will have to survive and die everyday and just die finally one day without you with you. With you will be a beautiful experience without you I don't want to live.